Posted on Sun Nov 11th, 2018 @ 3:32pm by Ensign Avendar Jurot
Chief counselor's log.
I just returned from meeting the being called Hera. Also present was Lieutenant Commander Paris, with whom, I deduce, Hera has some history. The purpose of my meeting with her was to determine, if possible, why the being "Gaia" possessed me, and for what purpose.
Hera's answers were vague. She thought that my innate abilities as a Betazoid may have attracted Gaia in the first place, but to what end?
Hera also offered to "heal" me, but I declined the offer. I simply could not trust another so-called "divine being" after what happened to me. She then pointed out that maybe my senses have atrophied due to fourteen months of disuse. To that end, I will begin a regimen of mental exercise to "restart" my abilities.
As of this point, I don't know which way to turn. My Izmadi is dead. I've lost a chunk of my life and career. I'm aboard a ship where I have a negative history which I don't remember. The officers, to their credit, have done their best to make me feel welcome.
When I'm finished this log entry, I'm going to sickbay for a sedative. I haven't slept in days, and, while I've done this before, I have no desire to repeat sleep deprivation training.
Perhaps, my outlook will be more positive after a rest.